River Tam

Shaking quaking won't stop... sky burns red, calling from the Below, can't take it, can't.

Should... should go.

...reminds her of something. From the Shepherd's book.

"And the sea gave up the dead which were in it, and death and Hell delivered up the dead which were in them: and they were judged, every man according to their works. And death and Hell were cast. They were cast into the lake of fire. And with it came about the second death. And whosoever was not found in the Book of Life... was cast into the lake of eternal fire."

...judgment...

(OOC: Look, someone had to do it, and River was the only one of my characters - besides KOS-MOS, but she wouldn't quote this - whose likely read the Bible. Oh, also Shizuma, but she's too new and not crazy enough quite yet.)

[voice sounds frantic, bordering on hysterical. She's clearly talking while crying.]

-should be happy but she's breaking cracking falling all the pieces scattered about gouge the feet tear the flesh can't do it can't stop it...

...


....not alone but always alone, never not again. Gone gone off and away. Not alone. Lied. Always.

Forever alone.

...

...niang...

[Transmission cuts out.]

(OOC: River's losing her shit SO BAD RIGHT NOW, because Cissnei left. Pretend this was made around that time, btw. But, yeah. Crying. Breaking stuff. And gonna go catatonic for a while. Probably will go out killing. Talking to her might be dangerous, but feel free. ♥)

-eating away it's eating away it's eating away it's eati...

...

...

...wuoshang mayer, maysheen, byen shr-to...

(It cuts out here. Afterwards, there is another segment, that was obviously added after the initial post.)

...

...too much. Too strong.

They... had no hope.

...

...quiet now.

(Cuts out again)

(OOC: Okay, so, River picked up the OH GOD I'M DYING A HORRIBLE DEATH WHILST SCREAMING MY LUNGS OUT FROM THE PAIN brain waves. And it made her lose it. For a few minutes. She's developing some serious mental calluses, from all her time here. Anyway, once Neena and Anemone died... she snapped out of it. But then she got real sad, because she realized the reason their minds weren't screaming anymore. D: The Chinese bit, btw, means "I will close my ears and my heart, and I will become a stone". She's praying for the horrible voices to stop. D: )

...still no escort. And Aud's left.

She'll be above, now. Perched albatross.

Shall she fly?

Or simply watch?

Questions, questions. Always questions.

But she's still near niang, so she doesn't mind them much.

...ball.

She should have an escort, this time...

Applicants?

(OOC: Yes. She's accepting applicants for her date. Fill out the forms in triplicate, so she can eat two copies. Or something. <3 )

...WAS a good day...

Niang: she'll be back. Hopefully with someone.

(OOC: ......River's storming off to look for the Joker, since he killed Anya, River's new source of memories of Spikefriend. She'll return after a few hours, dragging Anya's corpse. And she'll be somewhat badly injured. <3)

...she knows him.

Nice.

Like seeing him again...

(OOC: She's going to give anyone she knows, that she happens upon, a biiiiig hug today~<3 ESPECIALLY CISSNEI. That one might be a tackle-hug. She feels good, since she saw a bit of Spike in Anya's memories~<3333 )

...

Does Squall dance?

...not alone anymore.

Staying with Niang, and Squall, and Jei.

Safe now?

Or less...

...

Not sure.

But happier.

Still miss Spike...

(OOC: Jei = Farfarello, for those not in the know. Also, strikes are hackable. She misses her Spike like burning D: )

...

Everyone leaving... forgetting...

...even Vincent forgot...

Niang's still here, though...

...little tape on the glass... already broken, just not falling apart...

(OOC: Strikes hackable to Cissnei, Vincent, and Namine. River's not feeling so awesome. D: )

*A high-pitched and incredibly pained shriek is heard, followed by the fleshy thud of a person collapsing on hard stone. The connection times out a few moments later.*

(OOC: So, um. River accidentally went looking in Warren's mind... and got hit by a Psychic Crush, which has left her in a near-death state. If someone were to get to her quick, it would look like she was having seizure; after a while, though, she's just plain unconscious.)

......

...it ended...

...why...?

(OOC: River liked being young. She wasn't crazy then. D: )

...what's with this outdated terminal?

No, okay, better question.

What's with this go-se house?

....no, even BETTER question.

What's with this TOWN??

There's nowhere like this on Osiris...

...Simon! Are you playing a trick on me?? Did you buy some hologram emitters without telling me??

I'm telling niang on you!!

(OOC: Soo.... have River Tam, age 9. She's not a psychic, she's not crazy, she's not a ninja. She's just a genius. And a dancer. And a brat. <3 )

The king and his men
stole the queen from her bed
and bound her in her Bones.
The seas be ours
and by the powers
where we will we'll roam.


Yo, ho, all hands.
Hoist the colors high.
Heave ho, thieves and beggars,
never shall we die.


Yo, ho, haul together.
Hoist the colors high.
Heave ho, thieves and beggars,
never shall we die.


Some have died
and some are alive
others sail on the sea
– with the keys to the cage...
and the Devil to pay
we lay to Fiddler's Green!


The bell has been raised
from its watery grave...
Hear its sepulchral tone.
A call to all,
pay head the squall
and turn your sail to home!


Yo, ho, haul together.
Hoist the colors high.
Heave ho, thieves and beggars,
never shall we die...



...she hopes this helps.

(OOC: River picked this up from Captain Jack's mind, and... she needed a dirge to sing to Sellz's shoulder. So, this. For great lulz.)

*surprisingly calm*

...back with Spike, now...

Shouldn't be happy, but she is. Missed him.

Niang, they should-

*Her voice is interrupted by the bellowing, barely audible on the recording. At almost the same time, River begins to scream; the two noises end simultaneously*

*Heavy breathing*

...too...

....too heavy....

*whispered*

LastNightAsIWentUpTheStairIMetAManWhoWasn'tThereIMetThatManAgainToday

I wish

I wish

He'd go

AWAY

(OOC: Don't worry, folks, it's not a REAL breakdown. River's just veryyyy sensitive to disruptions in the norm. She'll be back to normal in a few minutes)

*Cuts in and out*

....alone... darkne-...

....she... she doesn't want to...


*Hushed, sounds shocked*

.....Spike?

...Buffy?

They...


.....


....shouldn't be here....

*ends*

Ah....

Okay, this is a bit harder when I understand my own thoughts.

I really... really hope this is the result of the... extreme measures I took on New Year's Eve. I'm going to be very angry if this ends... if I have to go back to being that.

I feel like I should celebrate, but... it looks like I'm one of the only people in a good way right now. Does anyone need... I don't know, help? Generic, nebulous help?

(OOC: .....why did I have the urge for her to end this with "alright, peace out nigraz~"? That's a weird urge. But, anyway, yeah: inverted River. Is sane. And normal. O_O )

*lots of static*

...reclaimed missing pieces. Just a moment. Lost again... spilt with the tea. They'll slip.

Need them back.





...to lose is to gain...





...she knows what to do.

(OOC: River was in the middle of a super-crazy spell when the switch hit, and then she became sane. She went back to the half-there state she's normally in, and... she's about to do something drastic, in the hopes that it'll make her sane again. After all, the source of a large part of her insanity is her knowledge of what happened on Miranda; she knows that death causes one to lose memories. So... she's climbing the clocktower. Not that anyone is likely to notice, what with the dance and all.)

*her voice is dangerously quiet*

...I have seen beyond the pale beyond the woods beyond the veil and I have sung the longest tale of mice and man and wrath...

*a single, loud sob, which is followed by a sickening crunch*

...it isn't what it seems to mean. Never means. That.

Burning.








run

*recording shuts off*

(OOC: Sooooo River finally lost it again. The crunch was her slamming the palm of her hand into the wall by the terminal, in an attempt at focusing herself; she ended up downright CRUSHING most of the bones in her left wrist. Not that she'll notice, in this state, but still. She's hurt. And crazy. And the little bit of sanity she has left is pushing her towards running away from everyone, so she doesn't hurt them, but.... it's not getting listened to. Sorry. ^_^ )

*Heavy breathing. Voice is a bit distorted, as though one were speaking through tears.*

....anyone...

Niang... she...



...help...


(OOC: She saw Cissnei die ;_; )